Friday, April 13, 2012

blue

Sigh.....
Don't know why
there's no sun up in the sky.....But I am getting sick and tired of it.  Clinical depression sucks.  Oh, I take meds for it. And they make life bearable.  Most of the time. But sometimes they don't quite cut it.  There are signs.
trouble focusing
trouble reaching out
trouble getting the where withal to bathe
troubled sleep
troubled dreams
irritability
isolation (I think I said that before)
sitting and staring at nothing
desire to self medicate
maybe i need to up my meds
the blues
the blahs
I'm lonely

 such a beautiful place but I feel no joy in it....

Saturday, March 17, 2012

The newbie


So there was this challenge to make a newbie av. Some blog was having a contest. Make a new av and spend less than $250L. I thought, I can do that. “Easy peasy” as some teacher of mine once said. It's not like I haven't done it before. So I did. Well, let me tell you the new av experience is awful these days. No lessons, just pick a starter av and dive right in. and they give you portal choices like socialize, roleplay, adult.... I forget the rest. I chose a pale blond vampire and chose socialize. I wandered through a room full of other newbies with poseballs for sitting around.

Well, I knew I didn't want to stay there and chat up the newbs so I used search and took off for NCI Kuula. I stopped at their freebie boards and picked a couple of free outfits. Next I went up to a changing room and then goofed around in the library for a bit. Out of nostalgia I tried to adopt the pink polka dotted newbie av. But her glitch pants were missing for some reason.

So I put on the blue jeans and pink top I'd picked up and then thought, I've got to get some good skin and an ao. I remembered that LAP Long Awkward Pose has a decent free ao for newbies under 30 days of age so I searched and tp'd over there to pick it up.

Then I went to Fab Free headquarters. I got the slurl from their website and I'd just stopped in there and noticed that they now have a landmark board just inside the door on the left wall that has a landmark for Savoir Hair. So I grabbed that and then did a quick tour of the fab freebie boards, focusing on skins shapes and grabbed Eolandes basic jewelry set. I remembered that Cupcake had a sweet skin over on the lower right corner, it was still there, so I snatched it up. Speaking of Sn@tch I also grabbed their newbie gift since she is one of my favorite designers in sl. Not only that I wanted the landmark for her store so I could make use of the bargain pit. Tea Lane had a complete starter av right next to the Savoir Hair sign so I took that as well. And I also picked up the landmark for the free dove. Free Dove  is one of the oldest freebie stores still running and a lot of their stuff is way old, but they have some goodies still.

I took my haul and then stopped off at a store that was featured in Fabfree's blog that had a cute striped yellow top for a dollar. Le Lolo was their name and I copied the slurl and headed there. Then I was taken in by the freebie gifts on her counter. They weren't free. They were $10L per bag. So I got a few joke tshirts for $30L. Didn't mean to but that's what being a newb is all about I guess. So it turns out the striped yellow tank was a hunt gift and I had to find a flower petal. Not too hard for a veteran hunter like myself. Then off to Sn@tch's bargain pit. Times are tough and I could tell. The number of freebies down in the pit was reduced to their started av kit. So I took that and split.

I took my loot and went to NCI Fisherman's wharf site to use their changing room. I find it's a lot less crowded there than at Kuula. So I tried on all my stuff and decided it was time to make my own shape.
Not from scratch, oh no. I've done that before but I wanted something quick and dirty. Not too long ago I'd learned about the standard sizing initiative for mesh and I remembered that you could pick up modifiable shapes on the marketplace. A search for standard brought them up and they are still free. So I took the Standard Small shape and saved it with my name 1.0. Then I tweaked it making sure not to change the sliders that need to stay standard. So now I have a custom shape that should be able to fit into mesh clothes without too much trouble.

So – here I am in the cute yellow striped tank, the freebie jeans, Chai Anxiety Hair and cupcake skin.
I'm at Caledone Uxbridge's starter tutorial. It's the best one I've found and I generally recommend it to newbies. They also have some awesome freebies to give out along the path.


Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!

It's been an interesting couple of days, but it's pretty clear to me that this is not really doing any good.  Thank you all for participating but you'll have to find somewhere else to play.